Apologies, Gratitude, and Transitions

It’s been seven months since I wrote on Caring Bridge, “I’ll make one more entry in this journal next week…”
Do you ever promise more than you deliver? Sometimes I do.

I spent six months or so blogging on Caring Bridge about my adventures with Non-Hodgkin Lymphoma, and transferred all those posts to my WordPress blog. What I didn’t transfer was the stunning volume of love and encouragement, in the form of comments that followed each blog entry.

I intended to create an image collage of all the friends and loved ones (whom I collectively refer to as ‘angels’) who helped me to navigate and survive the cancer treatment. I apologize for not creating and publishing that collage. I can see the whole thing in my mind, and believe me, it’s just lovely. You’ll have to trust me on this, and picture yourself among the cloud of angels.

Back in May 2017, I also claimed that I’d continue to write, and offered to share my blog address, “in case anyone wants to keep reading.” For my Caring Bridge readers, here’s the link to One Eccentric Contemplative.

Transitions – I’m moving from having a home to being a nomad. I’ll write about my travels, and share my ideas on traveling and on not having a home. My life is becoming a combination of exploration, experimentation, and pilgrimage. I have a friend, Charlie, who articulated so well the place in which I find myself. I requested permission to share his words, and I’m grateful he agreed. I may print them on ‘business cards’ to give folks who ask where I’m from, what I’m doing, or where I’m going.

“If we are lucky, a time may come when we have the opportunity to exchange all our answers for bewilderment. 

In that place, when we finally drop the struggle to know, to understand, when we fall back and surrender to our utter helplessness before the immensity of life’s mystery, in that place is where we find our peace. 

I now find myself in that very place. I have chosen to let go of trying to steer my ship with the rudder of my own limited belief system, and a new life, one that I had not even imagined, will now fill my sails and take me to amazing new, uncharted lands.”

I continue to count myself among the luckiest of people on the planet.

See y’all,

Marcel LaRose

PS – I’m forever grateful to CaringBridge.org – a non-profit online presence that allows people to easily get updates and offer support and encouragement for family and friends in challenging health situations. Their mission is “to amplify the love, hope and compassion in the world, making each health journey easier”.  And they do it very well.  Do keep them in mind. They are there when you need them.